Ode to Death

Once it was death that I craved.  I sought out the death and believed that it was the key to eternal freedom, and the path to eternal light and life.  I believed that it was true, that I should reject myself and turn away from the longings of my flesh, in order to seek the higher existence.  On the path, I walked, and faced all of the fears that dwelt within such darkness.  I fought off the forces of evil and the demons that confronted me and conflicted with my own desires.  I looked at myself and hated everything that I was, because I was nothing, but dirt clinging to dirt.  I believed that if only I could die of this nothingness, my spirit would be set free forever to roam and dance in the weightless realm of the eternal spiritual consciousness.  

I fought to gain enlightenment, and freedom from the flesh that bound me to the gravity of this gravel.  I would forsake all else and deny my self and reject this world in the pursuit of the eternal life that I believed called out to meet me.  I wanted to rise above and beyond this human form that was cursed in its duality...  in our desirous longing to cling to the flesh, our needs and wants.  I  saw the beauty of the world, and the life that it possessed within.  I was not so blind that I could not see how good the earth and all of creation in this universal truth was.  Oh but so flawed had it become by the mighty lie that caused us fear of death and slavery to the soiling things.  

If only I could die to be born again free from this flesh that once owned my spirit, then I would be greater than the carnal image created of clay, I would be the light.  And as this living light, I would possess the body that could no longer possess me.  I would be free from the sorrow-filled world.  I would look at this world that I once hated because I was destined to live out my days as such a slave to it, and no longer feel such things.  I would instead, hear the cries of my sisters as they begged me to save them, to show them the way, that they too could become emancipated as the living light.  I would spend the rest of my days finding a way to free the souls of the children from the curse of mankind.  

I never forget the blessings of mankind, for it is the journey of evolution  to this pinnacle that has allowed for me to be set free; and without the works of all throughout the course of evolution, this day would have not been made possible.  I never forget to thank those who sacrificed heaven and fell to the earth, to build this legacy by the works of their hands.  I'll never forget those who forgot the truth, because it is you whom I live for today, to redeem the lost souls of your children.  It is your heirs whom I will show the way for the coming of the new generation of days is awakening.

Today, it is life that I crave, for I have defeated death in my own right.  Today, I am free, as the Prima Light, I Live.